Weight of Words

Works and deeds trail behind each of us
in lines upon the pages of the minds of those
who have seen.
And because his own thoughts are not recorded
as his past, he can sense it's their perception as what
has kept him from being free.

No one really writes an autobiography.

But to turn the page to another day,
and make a change
so other's can feel his emotions
 - what he really wants them to capture,
he would have to be obvious and loud with his intentions
in order to make it to the next chapter.

Even though he is through with what is done,
it is not through with him.
And what their eyes see
develop on his page
within their speech.
Some words are light,
showing the good and being polite,
making good changes easy
as he tries to turn pages
feeling in control of what is written down.
But the weight of words
within the leather bound
novel labled "His Name"
will never be erased
and will continue to be filed,
and those with greater heft
neither can be reconciled.

Jordan R Shaver 10.25.2012